I originally started this blog before the birth of Chase, as I wanted to remember the whole experience as looking back, those details can get fuzzy.
I don't want to get depressed or bring anyone down, but as Chase and Skye get older I cannot help but think what a great addition Abbott would have been to our sweet family. Not saying that I could have handled it any different or that I would have wanted a baby with all the possible problems, but just in thought.
At different times, in different thoughts, and often in more quiet times than not, I think about all my miscarriages (3 to be exact) and mourn. I don't want anything different, it's just a passing human thought.
And even though I know that people don't mean it, whenever someone says to me, "Just two boys?" I still have to hold back the tears. Yes, just two boys. Two very miraculous and life saving/changing/giving boys. That's what God wanted for me and knows (especially on this very crazy hard day I've had!) that Skye and Chase are what I need for right now.
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Yep. That's gotta be hard.
Wow Lisa, I didn't realize you had lost three babies:( Definitely I will be praying for you as you grieve. Grieve with hope.
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